Molly
I was more dead than alive. I knew it and worse, I accepted it. Despite having a huge heart and giving it with all my might, every best effort seemed to end in hopelessness and despair. I'm not a quitter, believe me, I tried so many things — countless things, GOOD things — to change my life. Yet somehow something essential felt lost or broken. I was unable to build a foundation to live from that didn't crumble at each emotional trial.
My sister mentioned Soltura after her first workshop and something in me whispered, "you need to do that if you can". So despite my fear of one more exhausting failure, I asked for a way to participate and to my eternal gratitude, was able to experience the Soltura journey.
It's been a year since I finished the trilogy, and it is with me every day. Every day. I risked what I thought was my very existence in exercises that have changed me forever. These are big words filled with the light of truth from my heart. One of the things that hurt most when filling out the Soltura paperwork, was a question asking what I dreamed of becoming when I was a child. I had no answer. I believed I was a broken failure and a mistake. I lived my life trying to justify and apologize for needing love; crippled, sorry, angry and ugly. I thought that was me.
That turned out not to be true! There are just no words that will express the realizations, growth and change that the Soltura workshops gave me the opportunity to experience. Carole and the facilitators created an atmosphere of safety and love that made it possible to get to the bottom of it; open like never before, risk whatever was needed, expose the illusion, reveal the truth and feel finally and completely at home. I left each workshop wondering what could possibly be left for the next one! Each one built on the last, giving tools and experiences that are indelible. Everyone experienced something unique, priceless and essential. I witnessed the most amazing acts of courage by women I will never forget. I've received and given the warm embrace of unconditional love and acceptance.
My life continues to be changed by my Soltura workshops. It's not something that stops. This experience has been one of the most precious in my life. I remembered my dreams and am creating new ones from a place of choice. Most of all, I am alive and real. Thank you so much!
Molly
